something that comes up a lot for me is a great fear of being "bad". Can you speak to that piece? I know it's guilt-shame overlays of the NAA programs, but then I also do catch what might be called "corruption" spirits in my negative ego thought processes, but when I see that I go into fear. I know I need to figure out in my own heartspace, but if you have time to comment - appreciated!
When I contemplate on this one, I want to ask you "who told you in life, that you were bad?"
Usually the thoughtforms inside of the negative ego are tied into a real life experience, and then there is a mindslide put on top of it, so you cannot recall the entire sequence of events. It is similar to a situation where there may be a soul fragment from an earlier time in life, and then a fear spirit attaches itself to that fragment. Then, when a different event happens; this fearful memory or fear of being 'bad' comes back up into your awareness, because there is a subtle energy which has the same signature from the first time it happened.
If you are unable to consciously think of an event from your current life, ask your inner heart/avatar or god connection to show you where the root causation does truly lie. This is where the multi-D expressions come into play. Quite often, when I am working HGS etheric surgery in energyworking sessions, I can see a person's multiple expressions throughout time - so this means, if the original pattern started in another time-space location; it has tracer cords through the lightbody all the way back to the current self now body. This means the entire pattern can be collapsed throughout the 12 tree grid (as far as the eye can see, so to speak) and it removes the impact from the here-now expression of self. If you meditate and ask to see/observe the timeline/body where the original root causation happened - allow yourself to be in observer mode, so you can 'witness' the event. The compassionate witnessing is a christ force energy that when applied; does collapse time and space, and clears the energy from the point in time where you are observing it happen from. This might bring up feelings in the body, thoughts in the mind; let yourself see this and try not to get caught up into the movie of it; stay outside of the energy and just observe it.
Then you can reassess yourself, to check when-if the pattern comes up again in the mind. There may be further parts of the pattern that need to be retrieved or viewed to remove the impact. Expectations projected upon us can sometimes create a feeling sense of not being good enough, which can lead into that pattern of being bad. It depends on how this is being framed within your mind. In some cases, being bad, such as being rebellious is a power-play that provides a sense of empowerment in certain cases. In other ways, this can be a feeling of shame, and it has stemmed from people in positions of seeming power that make statements to create an underlying fear based response or reward system. It harbours a disconnect from source, because it brings a feeling of punishment if conditions are not met.
Another way to unravel this would be to write down the specific things that are happening at the time when this fear pops up for you. This can help you to piece together particulars around where, what, who, when and why?
Working to understand where this feeling started, in your current life, or in the past/concurrent stations of identity can support building an awareness. The antichrist forces and demonics insert thoughts and force feelings of doing bad things, intrusive thoughts and also will use energetics to bring the satanic forces to judge you, into co-ercing the feelings of feeling ashamed when your behaviour does not present or express through your body as something that you actually did as being wrong. Case study when this feeling arises, and how you internally respond to it. Until there are clear awarenesses through self-study of the self, it will reveal to you where this pattern originated from, for usually it means healing of the false parent archetypes or the lunar forces, embedded in the shadow and subconscious mind. Also, demonic attachments can also be promoting those feelings and this is common with individuals who are self-harming, or upholding very rigid patterns of control within themselves. This takes time to become slowly aware of, to address it fully as a part of the energetic self-responsibility required in the ascension process.
Hope this helps for now,
Much Love,
Mhairi
