Inklings of Insight
There have been several themes related to the rising of the rishi into form that have been central to my experience of late. However, this level of embodiment has increased the respective vision and opened up yet another layer of the cosmic galactic planetary and personal architecture for witness. That said remaining in witness can sometimes involve some shifting of the footing or transformations of the perception. So what I felt like talking about is returning to observer or deepening your inner connections and for the most part not engaging in any process that occurs from a mental body suggestive or an outer source invitation to you to heal or do something special. There is a lot of this getting sprayed out through nanotech which serves to distract us in figuring out solving or trying to answer a call that is not coming from the inner christos. This has to be discerned individually since there are also inner calls to emancipate and heal as well. The difference in terms of qualities is that when the invitation is coming from within it is natural unfolding that doesn’t ask for permission nor does it require conditions from you; you just find yourself cycling through memories or shadow contents are brought to the surface or your awareness so that your heart centered intent can serve to forgive heal and help you return to a greater wholeness.
The alchemy process is at work but it doesn’t feel comfortable, it is a process that requires a letting go, a space of trust and silence to be made where once there was and is a loud and angry or painful cluster of self. There can be a bit of blindness here which confuses self with mere feeling. I am noting that because sometimes it can be helpful to note the actual content of this painfulness asking yourself is it a part? Is this part more a feeling than something like a self or an identity? Establishing what it is helps you recognize indirectly that you are not that you are the whole that also contains that essence. When this return to clear view occurs the transformation can move forward.
Generally though these are steps, small steps, that return a flow of feeling and a centering rather than a holistic resolution. The pacing is something we all have to get used to many times, this can be talked about as learning the rhythm of the universe, dancing with creation a process that requires a kind of harmony in motion which can only be mapped after the fact. This shift from mapping or planning out what to do, assessing what is wrong, looking for answers can be quite difficult. Part of the difficulty is that we oftentimes bring conditions which limit our ability to receive direct feeling-based knowings and so our steps become a bit more slow as we work out the fact that mental corrections or overlays can only help us part of the way and if we rely on this means we can’t actually take the leap we need that allows the effort to end and the burden to be dropped completely. We can instead remember that God did not do this, does not require set or require conditions God is loving us and we are re-learning how to let that be our means and method of being which involves looking at the patterns we have become stuck in believing and the behaviors they are related to so we can then carry about the dismantling or mess cleaning.
Part of the difficulties involved in dark night or upheaval zones is coming around to how we are relating with and to ourselves, changing our attitude toward these processes despite that they are not “what we want.” This label needs to be addressed since it is more that the ego or separate self does not want things to be difficult nor does that want change, it is the inner god spirit that does and needs to be realized as the leader and the authority-power must be dissolved that is stuck in any old controller patterns which want to manage or micromanage change through a kind fo “this is the way things should be or I am not doing it” attitude. So it is a good thing to look at how you are treating yourself, are you driving yourself around like a horse, trying to push it to the max in order to reach a destination or in order to arrive at a standard of perfection any extreme even work ethics, intelligent anaylsis, etc can act as an opposing stone upon the path. These behaviors are actions of attention that have arose in a past when the real or imagined conditions were different than they are now. There usually needs to be an incisive discernment that needs to be established to cut away the refuse, we are evolving and are becoming yet more freed and self-sustained and sovereign therefore it is doing less not more which is required; the adage work smarter not harder applies.
Some of our deepest wounds actually relate to what we think God wants form us in relationship to what we believe(d) was required in order to move through a past state or stage of growth. We continue to learn it is not God but ourself which holds the key, we need to allow ourselves to relax more, to surrender the attempts of trying outwardly to be more, better, different, or other than what we already are. The idea here is that we need radical acceptance not just a partial forgiveness and acceptance which we are holding in one hand and talking to God trying to explain that we have done the thing when the reality is we need to be all in, this is what is necessary but it isn’t to be an effort, and especially not a mental exercise or special spiritual experience. Just accept without conditions who you are and live. This is the passageway of freedom. It is conditional grasping on to objects of attention which may be cluster of enegry-experiences, that lead to weight, difficulty, burden, and argumentation with outer sources or ideas of God. We can carry on like this for many many days despite that we may intellectually know what we are tasked to do, this is a space provided and sustained by Source for each person to re-learn how to love the object or part or self in a more beneficial environment then was originally present.
This may make it sound easy though and it never is, but it can be easier if the intention to be generous, kind, & compassionate toward yourself is provided your attention above all else. It is usually other qualities or concerns that occupy more of space and time becomes they either interest us (power & attainment) or bother us (avoidance & darkness) but these routes of expression only muddy the waters of being. Be kind if you forget, be kind if you don’t know, be kind if you can’t seem to do, be kind if you got lost, be kind if you got or get or are mad, this emphasis significantly reduces the difficulty but again this shift can’t occur because you are choosing kindness not because you want to be kind or are trying to be kind while you are yelling at yourself, an entity, or conditions.
This experience, of dark night, is probably more accurate to call the inner sun rising, it is tremendously sacred; it is our innocence returning, but it is also usually the hardest hit we are by dark forces so we have a shadowed view how beautiful and how much a gift it actually is to be guided by our inner God parents to witness and to true freedom. Remember this is not what God intended it is what NA have created to try to distort our relationship to ascension, healing, and god, Please do not lose sight of this, negative forms can impact us even if we are centered like a bully who says negative things about you repeatedly but it is only dramatically harmful if we are giving our attention outward or to something that is actually not us at all and isn’t arising from an acceptance of ourself and an authentic expression of our heart or authority. We are the chooser, we have the last say, we are the authority and co-creators with Godsource. We must transition from saying and believing this to knowing this through experiences, whether or not those are trials and tribulations, and we must be careful not to override our embodiment through intending, willing or, forcing ourselves to adopt a trait or outcome we think we know about or absolutely desire to develop.
Beloved God thank you for your perpetual love-guidance and for the shared awareness-experience of being here, may all those who find themselves lost be found by you light love and truth. May the sword of mother’s wisdom cleave that which would cling from selfishness may the heart open unto itself to reveal the authentic softness of our eternal nature so that we no more seek any alternate states beings forces or sources; there is but one sun, the one love, one christed crystal core and this home is calling us in blessings of oneness and through togetherness-resonance now.
